Divad’s Soundtrack #76: September-October 2008

In the fall of 2008, I was struggling with the idea of change. Some doors were closing in my life – experiences I had greatly enjoyed had come to their natural end, and my natural instinct was to fight that. My whole concept of what it meant to be a Christian in a contentious political climate leading up to the election that year was changing pretty radically. And I can see in this set of songs I put together at the time that there is a lot of coming and going represented in the lyrics here, a lot of leaving people and reuniting, and a lot of need for the assurance that no matter how much change we go through, how much we kick and scream and protest what God is trying to do in us or in the world around us, or how much our very concept of faith might evolve as we leave behind the innocence of youth, God’s love for us is the one permanent thing that will never change.

In with the New:
TV on the Radio
Capital Lights

Out with the Old:
Edison Glass
Sarah Masen

It Was Worth a Try:
Family Force 5

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Divad’s Soundtrack #33: July-August 2001

This is the dreaded “post-breakup” mix. It’s actually one of my favorites, because while I could have taken it in an unapologetically depressed and angry direction (and I did give into those emotions here and there), there’s actually a sense of hope and even a slight hint of excitement at the chance to start over that emerges as the second disc winds down. Even in my darkest hour, I was somehow convinced that there would be better days ahead.

In with the New:
Michelle Branch
Superchic[k]
Matchbox Twenty
Circadian Rhythm
Dixie Chicks
Radiohead

Out with the Old:
Beanbag
Train
Cake
Ceili Rain
PfR

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Divad’s Soundtrack #22: August-September 1999

This is the soundtrack from my “poor days” – I left camp in July with a sense of a dream and a calling, and got hit with harsh reality in August (relationship troubles) and September (a frantic and seemingly fruitless job search that made me face the reality than I was running out of money with no one to fall back on). It was one of the most difficult and scary periods of my life, but looking back, I can see the seeds being planted which would blossom into the things I’m now comfortable with and thankful for as part of my adult life.

In with the New:
Chasing Furies
LaRue
Massivivid

Out with the Old:
SonicFlood
Lloyd
Eric Champion
This Train
Silage

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Divad’s Soundtrack #21: May-July 1999

 

This mix represents the summer of a lifetime, Part II. (1996 being Part I.) Most of this time was spent on Catalina Island, serving in and around the kitchen, and missing loved ones dearly, but figuring I must have been growing from the experience… right? I doubted it at times. After about the halfway point, I was nearly insufferable, counting the days and hardly being able to talk about anything other than wanting to be with my girlfriend again. But let’s not count out the friends I made at camp that summer – fellow staff members who played a variety of roles, some who challenged me to be more patient and forgiving, and some who I clicked with as if they’d been college friends living in the dorms with me for four years. Now I think about some of those folks and miss them dearly, and that’s the thing about graduating from college and wholeheartedly investing different parts of my life in different places – for the rest of my life, there’ll always be someone across a body of water or a long stretch of land who I will miss dearly. But I was challenged a lot that summer – by willingly giving up time with someone I loved during the summer, and by the time I spent with her when I came back in July and had to start adjusting to life as a full-fledged adult looking for work in the “real world”. The bulk of that didn’t hit until August, so this mix mainly covers that nomadic and difficult, but highly memorable summer.

In with the New:
The Juliana Theory

It Was Worth a Try:
Buck
Sarah McLachlan

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Divad’s Soundtrack #20: March-April 1999

Life was good in the Spring of 1999. It felt like I was preparing for adventures that I might not get to have ever again, and as I wrapped up my senior comps, I found myself with a lot of time on my hands, which I tried to make count by spending it with friends that I might not see a lot of after graduating. I came in a wide-eyed, ignorant freshman in the fall of 1995, and that felt like it had only been yesterday – who was I to suddenly be one of the big guys, the ones everyone would be giving a warm send-off, the people expected to go out and create a brighter future? I was barely 21. I was still a kid. But those days felt rich, and God was setting me up for big changes. This set kind of becomes my “commissioning mix” towards the end, because several songs focus on leaving my current life behind and having God lead me out into the unknown with some sense of missional purpose. In some ways, I saw my aspiration to go back to Campus By the Sea for the summer as a sort of “mission”, a way that I could serve and learn new things, because it had been that for me the first time around.

In with the New:
SonicFlood
Lloyd
Polarboy

Out with the Old:
Human

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Divad’s Soundtrack #19: January-February 1999

This is how my last semester of college began: I had a wide array of good friends, a girlfriend who was as excited to spend time with me as I was with her, a good plan for how I was going to finish my senior comps (that’s like a senior thesis at other schools) that brought my studies of math and philosophy together due to inspiration from a cognitive science class that I had taken, a job that I could do confidently and fit around my class schedule, and no classes before 1:30 in the afternoon. I was doing a lot of hard work, but for the most part, living the good life. I was trying to avoid thinking about the fact that it would all have to change in a few short months.

In with the New:
Silage
Plaid

Out with the Old:
Seven Day Jesus

It Was Worth a Try:
Wilshire

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Divad’s Soundtrack #17: August-September 1998

This is the music I was into at the beginning of my senior year of college, which was a crossroads if my life had ever seen one. Part of me was all but ready to go to a young woman who had been waiting all summer for me to make up my mind about her, and tell her that I wanted to be all hers and experience all the joys that such a relationship had to offer with her. The other part of me took a “wait and see” attitude, because, among other things, I still had this stupid little crush on someone else lingering from last year, plus I had the funny feeling I might meet someone new at the beginning of the school year. I definitely had come face-to-face with the “typical guy” desire to keep my options open, despite how I thought I’d jump at any chance to have a relationship regardless of how it came about. Maybe it was better that way, even though it frustrated Sharon. It meant that I really had to think through my motivations before finally making a commitment to a “steady” relationship.

In with the New:
Five Iron Frenzy
The W’s
Ceili Rain
Human
The Normals

Out with the Old:
Considering Lily
Model Engine
Erin O’Donnell

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