Divad’s Soundtrack #44: May-June 2003

The summer of 2003 was a tough one. I felt like I was trying to pull off a tricky balancing act – the weekends were filled with dates and other fun outings with Christine, most of which I genuinely enjoyed, but there was this feeling lurking underneath that I had issues I needed to work through before I could fully get my head into the game, in terms of where our relationship was going. It was one of the most stressful things I’d ever been through, and I knew I couldn’t keep it all beneath the surface for too long.

In with the New:
Sanctus Real
Dakona
Vienna Teng
Steven Delopoulos (as a solo artist – appears previously with Burlap to Cashmere)
Fiction Plane

Out with the Old:
Daily Planet
38th Parallel
Grits
Nine Days

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Divad’s Soundtrack #32: May-June 2001

This is the last mix that was made during my first long-term relationship. A lot of the songs represent the longing I felt at the time to make it work and my ill-advised attempts to patch it all together. Yet, when I go back and listen to these songs, instead of reliving a lot of anguish over how it all slipped through my fingers, I instead recall the growing satisfaction with solitude that I was beginning to learn back then. A lot of my happiest moments in those days were spent by myself. Some were prayerful, some were exploratory, and some were just plain relaxing. Some of these songs were the ones that helped to prepare me for a difficult process of letting go.

In with the New:
The Benjamin Gate
Train
Kevin Max (as a solo artist – appears earlier with dc Talk)
Sandra McCracken

Out with the Old:
Katy Hudson
Kendall Payne
Smalltown Poets

It Was Worth a Try:
Smash Mouth

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Divad’s Soundtrack #31: March-April 2001

If you could graph my emotions during the spring of 2001, it would be a slowly declining spoke with a sudden spike in the middle of March. That spike represents my first trip to Hawaii, a place that would come to have great significance in my life even if I had no way of knowing it at the time. At this point, I desperately wanted a way to “rekindle” the fire that was rapidly dying out in my relationship with Sharon, and once the opportunity to visit a friend of hers in Hawaii came up, I held out a lot of hope that our time there together would revive our happiness.

In with the New:
Katy Hudson
Nicole C. Mullen
Linkin Park
Incubus
Tait
Andrew Peterson

It Was Worth a Try:
Skypark
Lee Ann Womack

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Divad’s Soundtrack #30: January-February 2001

The mood of my mixes became increasingly erratic and jarring in the year 2001. I was dealing with growing pains in terms of reconciling old favorites with new experiments, trying on different hats to find an identity. I was also trying to cling to the simplicity of my college days and the friendships formed during that time (especially in my slowly unraveling relationship with my girlfriend), while dealing with a lot of angst when that didn’t go the way I expected it to. So if these songs feel like a bit of a rough ride with little in terms of logical connections from one to the next, then I guess that’s the way I felt back then.

In with the New:
Lifehouse
Tree63
Toby Mac (as a solo artist – appears previously with dc Talk)
Chevelle
Coldplay

Out with the Old:
Earthsuit
Aleixa
Collective Soul
No Apples for Adam
Shaded Red

It Was Worth a Try:
Dido
Rivulets & Violets

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Divad’s Soundtrack #26: May-June 2000

There’s so much joy and beauty that comes rushing back when I listen to this one. I finally had my own car, and could explore all I wanted in my free time, which led to a lot of peaceful afternoons spent hiking and impromptu visits with friends. Despite my fears that the summer ahead would be lonely without Sharon around, it turned out to feel like my first real summer of freedom. I also get strong memories of my wide-eyed wonder as I got to visit places I’d never seen before.

In with the New:
Nine Days
Earthsuit
Aleixa
Nina Gordon
All Together Separate

Out with the Old:
Mukala

It Was Worth a Try:
Philmore
Waterdeep

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